Beano

Beano sadly passed away 20th dec just before midnight, he was 11 and 2 mounths. We had a lovely sunny walk that morning, he did his usual happy rolling around on his back and we played with a stick. He started to get poorly by 9 in the evening, I was cuddling him and trying to phone emergency vets but the vets don't come out. I was laying on the floor with him till he took his last breath. The loss is over bearing, it was just me and Beano, he was my world. I still talk to him in the space where his basket was or beside me on the sofa and I cuddle 2 of his toys. Life is one big void without my best friend Beano.

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I know that void you mentioned. Nothing will fill it but allowing your emotions and feelings to come out will help. Sounds like you did all you could for him and that's all we can do. I had to put my cat to sleep on Nov 20th and the pain is still there. Time is a four letter word and we all have to ride it out. It's excruciating pain and sorrow we feel when they die and I know how you feel and just wanted you to know you are not alone. I'm glad you posted about it because it helps to talk about it.

Hang in there,

KUrt

Hi,

I'm so terribly sorry for your recent loss of Beano. My heart goes out to you. Snuggles Cuddles Sunshine (bunny) was my twin soul mate and we were like one. Sounds like it was the same with you and Beano. Without a doubt you deeply love each other and nothing in the world can take that away. I'm so glad that you were with him when he passed. As hard as that it, I'm very grateful that my Snuggies was in my arms.

Give yourself permission to grieve, in what ever form that takes. Grief is individual and we all grieve differently, in our own time and in our own way. Please don't let anyone tell you differently. They don't know your relationship with Beano. There will be people who just don't get it. Try to surround yourself with those who do. You'll find that here on Chance's Spot. We all know what it is to lose our babies.

I felt so empty inside for so long. July continues to be my worse month of the year, because I helped my Snuggies on in his journey, 4 years ago on July 30th at 12:15pm. His soul/spirit remains with me and I see him all the time. He lets me know he's here. If you think you hear Beano, he's with you. If you feel a tug at your blanket, it's him letting you know he's there. It happens all the time. I talk to Snugs all the time. I found a medical hot water bag for kids. I put Snuggles' urn in it and I sleep with him. It's what I need to do for me.

Please go slowly and take extra gentle care of yourself. Keep posting here too.